Well, i get my results from fri's PET scan today and I have to say I am more than a little anxious. I go at 1:15 to the Dr's. Rick will meet me there. I feel very wrung out. I've had test and appts. so frequently these last 6 wks. It's pretty draining on everyone, I guess.
The reason my "I"s are not always capitalized is because on my lapop the shift button is in a funny place and I keep hitting the control button instead, plus I'm a lousy typer.
Sarah is off to school and my boys are getting ready to leave in a few minutes. How will I spend my time til 1:15?
Blue will probably get a very long walk. Laundry is just about all caught up. I could go to the grocery store. We need stuff for dinner. ummm, I'm just thinking.
I am not handling this well. I think I need some prayer. i don't think I am letting God help me for some reason. How do you just relax and accept His will? I really am trying.
I always found it strange that the matyrs found it a privilege to share in the sufferings of Christ. I really am not suffering other than mentally. i have no physical pain or discomfort from my treatments. no bad headaches this week. I just have a sadness that I can't shake. I do love Jesus, and I want to be more like Him, but this is not the way I thought it would happen. It;s very hard. This is nothing, a miniscule drop in the ocean to what our Lord endured on the cross for us, but I am nothing compared to Christ. Wow, I am blabbering. you have my blessing to stop reading now if you think I m being ridiculous.
Time to change my thoughts:
Things i am thankful for
My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ-My Salvation-My Husband-My three crazy kids-My Mom and Dad-My husbands parents- my family, my brothers and sisters in Christ-my cozy home-my Dog Blue who is right by my feet all day- the beautiful weather-a nice hot cup of coffee- hugs fom my children-kisses in the morning from my husband-my new bike. I think I could go on for a long time, and this post is already lengthy.
If you read this before my results, I would ask for prayers for strength and a clear mind, no fear. Thanks friends.
Love you
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Good morning Joann~ I was praying for you this morning and knew you would be getting your results soon so I logged on. I will be in prayer at 1:00 today. You're such an inspiration to us all and I know our Lord will be right with you today. Lets do lunch before school gets out. Maybe next week. I need you Ph#. Invite anyone else who just wants to relax and talk girl talk!! You sister in christ, Pam L
ReplyDeleteGood Morning Joann,
ReplyDeleteI pray that your results were "clear."
I understand your sadness--your love for your kids & family--you want to be healthy and protect them. I don't know how you "shake" that. I only hope that the prays will cushion and surround you and yor family.
All my love to you!
Love,Kathy
ps I was in Boston yesterday. Remember that T'Anthony's pizza place near BU. Well it is still there and the Pizza is still good!
Joann,
ReplyDeleteI will be lifting you to the throne today. I am praying that the Lord will give you His peace no matter what the outcome. Love, Susan
I just saw you this afternoon so I don't really have anything new to say. I just really like posting comments on your blog. It's fun. Sorry that things have been gray lately. The sun will peek through, I know it will. Brighter days are coming cause God has got it.
ReplyDeleteLove you lots.